So Hard

1. Putting away the dishes from the dishwasher, finding his favorite cup in there and knowing he will never use it again.
2. Never having to fix the toothpaste tube after he squeezes from the middle.
3. Laundry piles will be a lot smaller.
4. No more hair in the sink after he is done shaving.
5. Seeing his truck in the garage when I get home.
6. Mail coming in his name.
7. People phoning for him, and the awkward explination.
8. Making a card for my nephews birthday, and I had to sign his name, just couldn't leave it off.
9. Making meals for 2 little boys that love their Daddy.
10. Kissing those little boys and hoping it makes it better, just like an owie.

I trust in a God that will make all these little things better with time.

Psalm 68:5 " God is in his holy Temple. He is a father to orphans, and he defends the widows."

I am hoping to get back to stamping.  I always found it a real stress reliever and I should have some stamping things to post soon.  I want you all to know that I have read most of the comments that have been left in the past few days.  There have been over 1000 (comments) from you encouraging me, and to all of you I need to give a BIG CYBER {{HUG}}.  You have been so gracious and supportive in this life changing journey.

 

Comments

[Janine A]

Oh Julie.....
I just read about Russ. I am so sorry for the loss that you and the boys are going through. But with your faith in God, you will get through this.
May Gods love give you and the boys comfort during this difficult time.
What a beautiful video tribute that you made. How awesome that Russ was baptized and that he is able to witness to all of the people who see the picture.
How wonderful that God sent people to come in to help you with your house, the cooking and the boys so that you could spend extra time with Russ.
Wish we were all there to ease your pain. Just know that we are all praying for you and be sure to take some extra time out for yourself.

God bless you all.

Love from AZ

[Kay Mespelt]

Hi Sweetie-The time will slowly help to heal your heart. May the love and prayers of family and friends hold you close and give you support. It was hard and still is for me with the loss of my husband almost 2 years now. I still cry at the thought of him not being with me but get comfort knowing he is watching over me and like your husband is no longer in pain. Hoping each and every day will help give you comfort! Hugs Kay Mespelt

[Terry Molineux]

OMgosh Julie you just broke my heart. I am so sorry you and the boys are going through this right now. I am sure it will get better in time. Please know I think of you often. You are a very strong person and I envy you for your strong faith in GOD he will guide where you need to go. You and the boys are in my thoughts and prayers daily!

I cannot imagine what you are going through and I know I wouldn't be as strong as you!!!

Inky Hugs,
Terry~~

[Trina Leeson NZ]

These little things are his way of letting you know he is still around you, embrace them and the memories they bring. Our thoughts are with you. xx

[Gail Binette]

Many prayers going out to you and your family. So happy that you have such a strong faith because, that's what is going to give you the most comfort. Drink your coffee every morning from his cup as you are reading your bible. Perhaps this will help you to feel his spirit around you.

In sisterly faith,
Gail Binette

[linda panattoni]

I keep you and the boys in my prayers. I know Russ is looking down watching over you all. I hope you are able to get on with some stamping. You are so creative and I have enjoyed getting to know you and your family via this blog. Hugs to you and the boys. Linda

[Judy Janzen]

I can't imagine how hard it must be. We must remember not to take things for granted and enjoy all the little things while we have them. Praying God comforts and gives you strength in the days ahead.

[Ronnie]

Oh my,I am so sorry for your loss. And for the loneliness you and your boys feel. I hope you find comfort.

[Selina Neufeld]

Oh the things we take for granted! I am so sorry for your sadness! My prayer today is that I will appreciate all of my family and friends with an unconditional kind of love and not to take one more moment forgranted!

[Rita Palanjian]

my heart goes out to you and your boys. God bless.

[Diane McVey]

I cannot imagine what you are going through. I think about you so much, and wish somehow we could make things better. I hope knowing that all of us care deeply for you and your boys, will help just a little bit. My heart breaks for all of you, and I hope you can stay strong and courageous. But it's OK to be sad, too. None of us are super human! May God hold you in a never-ending embrace as you grieve your loss. [[[HUGS]]]

[Glenys]

My heart and thoughts are with you and your precious boys. Thinking of you everyday. Lots of love from Australia. xox

[Linda Q]

I think about you every day. God Bless!